yoyo,

jubilation. at least temporal for now. results are out, hmm well i did better den i expected seriously. ok so there was a tinge of disappointment for dreams gone wild, a glimpse into un-reality, but hey seriously i'm more den contented. ambition might kill sometimes, and so will procrastination and complacence. well i got 85% for phy, truly surprising, mr wee gave me the impression i was a gonner. 91% for e maths and 76% for hist/ss. wow. i managed 2 get an a1 for hist/ss heh. din expect tht. ok eng 78% and lit b3 yep, score unknown: there u hav it, e slightly shreded fragments of a dream turned true. perhaps hoping for straight As is too high above e clouds. bio will be revealed tomolo yup. hopefully an A1 too? haha am i asking for too much? :P ok so e hard work really did pay off. all the times i juz felt lyk giving up, all the times in the dark swings of depression, all the times i forced myself grudgingly to go on, all the dark intense brooding moments. well its finally cumulated into this climax. or rather this calm night before the storm. ya got my 6 points, looks lyk i'd be able to juz walk over now. at least for e first 3 months. yep i'm definitely satisfied. but no slacking off. e most impt papers are yet to be.

anyway well i noe some ppl din do as they might hav hoped. yup i juz wanna say ya it isn't over. life nvr is until you choose for it to be. no one else can force you to click the game over button. there's still bio, lit and eng tomolo for those hu haven found out their marks for my class. other subs for others. dun giv up. there's still moderation too ya? its not over and even if we still dun all achieve straight As for prelims there're still Os. they r still e papers ultimately determining our future 2 yrs.

ok ya aft sch met up wif zaidi aft his meeting wif his p. sch mates. we went 2 orchard intending to catch a movie, but it was a tag too late and ya not exactly veri possible for zaidi 2 get back home 2 late so we juz decided to walk around and talk instead. yeah. boring? nah i dun tink so. it wasn't for me at least. a couple of interesting things happened though.

for starters we met weng at taka kino. as usual we were blind and she spotted us. heh probably studying wif her friens but man i feel so guilty aft seeing tht. =P ppl r working so hard aft prelims and there we were relaxin and cooling off for well no really justifiable reason really. aft all our prelims had already ended last wed, earlier den em and we shld hav had our share of fun by now. but well e most interesting thing was i juz make a comment onli moments earlier tht some ppl can't go 2 orchard w/o meetung some1 they noe and we were definitely not 1 of em. zaidi mentioned something lyk i shldn't say tht shld we really meet some1 and lo and behold we did. haha. one of life's lil' jokes =]

well which reminds me. i also met some1 on e train later on e way home. din noe hu she was but apparently she knew my name. she mentioned something bout mbs and p 5 i tink but i dun seem to hav any recollection at all. oh man my memory is lyk dying out on me or something. anyway ya couldn'd say much coz i had to alight so yup. another coincidence: i was toking 2 samjo earlier tis mornin bout memories of our lives and how they'll fade wif time and all. and how we shld mak due effort to preserve our memories, the only key to the past history tht defines us as wad we r. and there we hav me completely blanking out on my p sch days. haha well irony. another of life's cunning pranks perhaps? well i do sincerely hope tht e past memories of these 4 yrs will continue staying on wif me for e rest of mu life. i suddenly realise they're so intangible and easily forgotten. buried under the eons tht mark the passage of time, lost for good. they represent so many things we stand for, we did, we pursued, we acoomplished. forgetting em will be lyk letting a part of urself go: u will nvr be whole again. nostalgia? well heh i'm sure i can be entitled to be, i'll be graduating in a couple of weeks man =P

bear wif me, anyway another interesting incident was wen we were alighting frm summerset mrt, tis rg girl approached us to buy charity draw tickets. guess frm which organization? haha ya the red cross. woah u're trying 2 prompt zaidi and me to buy rc tixs? haha u gotta be joking man. i was bout 2 suan her if zaidi din pursuade me not to. fancy telling of all the people in the world who would otherwise willingly buy a tix for charity, the ex-rirc chair and v-chair to buy tixs. heh ya i noe a bit mean and all, she wouldn't noe of coz but well i really couldn't resist it. comic relief frm a stressed up day.

mmm u noe if u really open ur eyes and look around, u'd really notice a lot of things u probably wouldn't see b4. the world's a small place man. today at orchard station we saw tis ri guy wif the rg girl and he was lyk caressing her and standing intimately lyk ultra close to her. and he was lyk fondling wif her hair in a way tht bears hints of slightly pervertic semblence. MAN HAVE YOU NO SENSE OF SHAME??? my god tht was a public place for goodness sake and lyk both of you were bloody wearing the sch uniform damn it. and worse still u dun hav 2 be so damn blatant bout it. come on la i seriously see no probs wif hugs and kisses and all tht but e way it happened really hit a raw nerve. call me conventional, call me traditional wadever, i found tht too much man. anyway later wen we went 2 e esplanade to relish the moment aft prelims b4 we finally graduate, and we met one of zaidi's friens there wif his (probably stead?) small world isn't it? well glad to noe at least some ppl keep their dignity intact

mmm ok ya juz got back frm dinner. went out today, mid-autumn festival, mum decided to eat out for once. u noe sometimes we question the words tht define our lives and we find no ans. y r we alive anyway? if u tink bout tht more qns pop us. wad is the point in humanity's existance actually? Does a higher being really exist? if it did how did tht being come bout? if it did no, den y are here? human thought and emotion is such a complex and beautiful thing. it allows boundless transition tht gives people inspiration, tht gives people hope, tht helps define reality. yet despite the immenseness of all these qns and the impossibility of it to ans and prove it, they can be spurn juz frm a moment along the river-front and staring at the crabs on rocks below. sometimes i juz wish moments would juz freeze and be locked down for eternity, allowing us to contemplate wad we truly r, giving us something we are so desperately trying not to relinquish. beautiful moments, lyk juz sitting at the riverfrnt, staring out at the city with the wind blowing on ur face. achingly enthralling, yet always transient and fleeting.

ok if u din get e last part ya juz dun bother. it probably wun mak much sense to some but hey no one said thoughts are easy to understand. if they were, we would all hav attained nirvana wouldn't we? anyway ya wrote long enuff. tak care ppl.